Nobody is perfect, but I try to be right and do right, I believe in God and I try to follow the golden rule and treat people like I want to be treated, however, I'm not too proud of some of the things I've done in the past - and death scares me because of this. - I don't like pain or suffering, especially if it's for an eternity!
These are good questions .. since God operates only in absolute truth, and is also the Author of all truth, it is important that we are honest and truthful with ourselves (our thoughts and our questions) before we try to approach God or the things of God. Too many people ask questions that they don't really mean in order to mask what is really going on in their heart .. even if those questions could be answered, they would do no good.